Worry...that's the word I choose for tonight. It happend to me everytime I woke up in the morning (I mean yesterday). I worry about my health...worry about my carrier...worry about my 'relationship' with labs...worry about everything that cross my mind. I prayed..but seems like God didn't answer my prayer. I guess this is the price I have to pay for such a sinful to God....feel worry for every single thing...this feeling is just killing me.
Today...I woke up in the morning with a heavy heart to open my eyes. It feels like I wanted to sleep the whole day and I never wants to feel the day passes by. But then I realized, if I don't wake up, I'm just wasted my chance to enjoy this life...or God may think that I don't appreciate blessed life that He given to me. Goshh...please forgive me God...I made a mistake again and again everyday... I commited sin over and over again... I'm so sorry for myself :( God , please....I beg u please show me the right way to live this life....Amen.
With a positive mind, I got up and make up my bed. After put everything in my mom's bedroom...blanket, pillow, matress and bed. All in neat and arranged position. I then took the broom and cleaned up the living hall. I felt cold that morning, I don't dare to shower so I just brushed my teeth and washed my face. I put on my toner and tight my hair neatly and to complete my day, a mug of coffee came my way. I felt alive again :)
I've been worrying about something, but I don't know what's that somethings was. At 3pm, I finally knew...what has put me in this worry feeling..my period is coming...kwang3...Unstable hormones makes me go upside down. I feel so much relaxed after knowing what exactly bothering me.
That night, before I sleep in the night...I pray like this:
our father who art in heaven
holy be Your name
Your kingdom come, you're will be done on earth as in heaven
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sins against us
Do not bring us to the test but deliver us from evil
Amen.
Goodnight.
xL :)
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