Pencil & Eraser

Pencil: I'm sorry...

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake,
you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish,
you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do
this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even
though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new
one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I
hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Friendships are like the eraser whereas their relationships are the pencil. Someone is always there for their friends, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their friend will eventually find someone new (friend), but these people are still happy with what they do for their friends, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

sunny saturday...rainy deep inside

It's 1158am, and J keep on silent. I put on my sundress and wait for her call. But seems like she's ignoring all my sms. I woke up quite early this morning. I tried to sleep again but my mind keep thinking about Mr.L. I text him, and nothing replied in ;( I got depress so i decided to call him. And again he didnt answer...i get more and more depressed ;( So i cried on my bed until i sleep again...hour later...i woke up and cry again and over and over again...

Desert Flower

It's November :) another month to go before 2011. What did I achieve this year? Im not sure...But, 2010 is a big year for me, massive changes: 1. MC for almost 4 months (6th Jan 2010 - 15 April 2010), 2. transfer back to Sabah 3.Being transfer to new Ministry 4. commit in long distance 'relationship' 5. living with my exhouse mate and eldest brother 6. facing difficult Director ...and 7. more things to come I guess.

On the 5th of November 2010, it was deepavali holiday. I decided to go back to my parents house which is located hundred more kilometer away from the main town. I wanted to see my dear lovie cats. I misses them so much. For the 1st time ever...I drive back to my hometown all alone. A little shaky in the heart...but, I keep pray to GOD that he will take care of me along the journey.

Thanks GOD, im safely home now. Reunited with my mama, papa, brot and 2 babies catie ;) I feel so comfort and I find peace here. I just stay relax and watch tv all the time to fill my free time. My mama and papa wasnt aroung...they both have another reunion for the all soul day with our relatives. I do not join them. I dont mean to be rude, but I dont know what am I going to do there...I dont drink rice wine, I don't enjoy the crowd, and I afraid I became restless and become monster ;(

I just watch the desert flower and it was awesome ;) Im very greatful that I was born as a woman ;) Im proud to woman :)