Weekend and Tears

I guess this weekend was the worse weekend I ever had for this month. Many shocking things happend. Since fiz aint around, i decided to spend my weekend with ED. He bought me new bookshelf. That was the highlight of the cheerful moment. Im really glad. Friday night I spent time all alone at my place, met AH for a while and stayed home alone online and watched tv.

The next morning, I do my laundry and went down to the gym for some workout. I ran 3km by the treadmill. I feel good after the workout session. I went up and hang all my damp cloth from the washing machine. Another trip of handwash cloths put me into trouble...what else...back pain again.

At 830am, ED replied my sms. We met at Tong Hing for breakfast. I took tuna and egg mayo wholemeal sandwich and 1 big mug of cafe latte. It was awesome breakfast. But ED didnt take anything. He told me that he had his breakfast at Milenium. Ok then. So i eat on my own. He just stared at me.

Done with the breakfast, he bring me around tong hing and bought for me 2 bottles of olive oil and wholemeal bread. He even bought for me the germany's choclate which i asked him to get one for me before he came down to kk. He spent about ninety bucks for me for take away dry food.

After that, we went to jalan lintas. He fixed his broken car exhaust. It took about 40 minutes. We sat inside the workshop and I felt extremely hot...just like hell...After 40 minutes, we went to putatan to do some window shopping. Instead of doing so, we shopped for a bookshelf. ED bought 1 for me. Im really happy at first until today... The furniture didnt send the bookshelf according to the 1st promise. They really makes me dissapointed. Extremely dissapointed.

Done with that, we went to Casa. Rest for a while and had some quarrel. I felt soo sad everytime we had a quarrel. I never want it, but things happend all the time for God knows what's reason behind ;(

Then, that night...we had our dinner at chub grilled. I had pork belly salads. It was awesome...added with mushroom soup made me even more and more satisfy. I forgot about the tears i had that evening.

After done with the dinner, ED bring me to tanjung aru beach resort's lounge for some relaxing. We listened to the 3 piece live band. The girls sang beautiful numbers for the audience. I just love it because the music is just same with my own personality ;)

I took margarita, choclate martini as week as cocktail with no name (i forget actually). I knocked off after the cocktails..really dont used with alcohol. ED bring me to Casa. I slept there that night because i cant drive...i was drunk.

The next morning, i had a fickled heart...a bitterness, and a wandering eyes and heaviness in my head...just because i finally knew that ED had 2nd baby. How come he never tell me anything about it. When i claimed myself to have his baby in my womb...he rejected me like i mean nothing to him...like i had no values at all. Thank u soo much for making me felt soo bad about myself even though im already at my worse...It's suicide in mind right now...;(

goodnight weekend. please go away bad things from my life ahead. Amen.

My Hiding Heart

So this is how the story went
I met someone by accident
who blew me away
who blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
you'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I dropped you off at the train station
And put a kiss on top of your head
I watched you wave
I watched you wave
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
Neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Away

I woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
On that same old road that brought me here
Is calling me home
Is calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear someday
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart
away