To Do Lists...

Today,

I did something extraordianary. I found out that 1 of my friend digging my history I dont know for what but accessing someone's privacy has never been an ethical things to do...and he did that. FINE!

You know about me now...at least i dont have to exlain who exactly I am..Im sure you hate me now rite..rite..?? Yes Im no angel...Im just a human being to tend to make mistakes over and over again. But..somehow...it's not that I plan to do. I just fall into sin and I learnt my lesson.

If you think that Im not worthy...it's fine with me. I don't care how u judge me because my concern is GOD's judgement. I did sin..but i repent on my sin. You don't have any rights to humiliate me the way u did...Labs, it's killing me...just put urself in my shoes..how do u feel??

Yes it's true that people says..' women always be blame '...always on the wrong side when it comes to relationship breakup. And now u labeling me that rite...be it! I dont care...

I don't know how to face a person who purposely digging my little black book and humiliate me without even thinking the consequences to me... I dont think I can face u anymore..

Somethings are better left unsaid and one of them is ' goodbye '...

xL

The art of letting go...

It's January the thirteen. I've been staying here at home all alone since last friday evening. As usual, my housemate never came home as she's staying with her boyfriend somewhere in Puchong. It's fine with me anyway...

I've been suffering with my Cervical Disc Herniation and just few minutes ago another news hit me and it double my pain. My housemate finally admit to me that she wants to move out from this house...I've been expected this for so long. I'm speechless and didn't reply her email straight away? I don't know what to say to her....

Im not scared. But this is life that I must facing...Somehow, I have to accept the fact that people may come and go. Some friends come for a reason...some friends come for a seaon and 1 in a million friends come for a life time. I guess she's number 2...so be it, and still...it's fine with me anyway...

I wish to tell her this...
1. I dont have money to pay her deposite..
2. I cannot afford to pay the house rent alone...she knows it...
3. Im not gonna let stranger become my housemate...
4. Im not gonna move to KL as I dont think it's a good idea...
5. There are many ways to reduce expenses without shifting to KL..like looking for a roomate..maybe her bf is the best choice...
6. Why must move out?

My fingers numbs...my head numbs..and what's next??

ps: Lord, i pray that you will guide me gone through all this difficult moments. Amen.

Nitez.